Experiences are a chance at letting go of control and seeing what happens

I like control

I am a teacher so I have a lot of type A personalities traits.

Order

Efficiency

Traits I pride myself in and sometimes over identify with.

I've chosen a non traditional career path as I have stepped out of the public school classroom. But I tried to narrow in too quickly and felt like my wheels were spinning and not getting the experience and momentum necessary for where I want to go in life

I started questioning if what I am doing is what I actually want to do. Homeschool teaching is difficult in its own way, creating lessons and curriculum with ultimate freedom is challenging in and of itself. I don't have a degree in curriculum building.

Why am I doing this? Is this even the path I want to be on?

I have been getting myself caught up in the initial path I have chosen, pushing away subbing jobs and other options.

I let go of this a little and today I experienced multiple avenues of education:

1. Special education school

2. Non-profit Islamic school

3. Homeschooling

4. Tutoring

Each educational structure had their own individual traits and systems. All showcased a lot of great things kids can get out of school, but also highlight many areas of growth.

It has me thinking about how my role in the schooling system has shifted. How lucky am I to see multiple sides of education. I want to continue with this, expand past private tutoring/home school sessions and see what else is out there. I want to dive into what makes a students education successful. how can we shift the system we are in to truly benefit a child's life long success.

When I first got into education, I stated "I am either changing the education system or leaving it."

There have been many days as a public school teacher and a private educator where I have contemplated leaving it.

I have enough skill and education to find another career that is easier, higher pay, more flexibility.

But

Each time I have a chance to work with students and watch them learn grow explore and interact, I am reminded of where my heart is set.

Working with kids in any capacity is where my heart is at.

I am no longer narrowly focused on the traditional path. Thank goodness. Because I would have never had the opportunity to teach in a private school today. Or bond with a student in a special education school. Or bring out a students strengths in a private session.

It has felt messy, scary at points, (and let's be honest, it is scary a lot of the time). But it is also eye opening, leaving so much room for challenges and growth.

People are talking more and more about how much our education system is truly failining on all levels. Student, teacher, district, families.

And I know believe I can help change the education system truly for the better.

There is strength in knowledge and education, we just need to redirect our priorities of what we are educating our children on and HOW we are educating them.